Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Questions and worries

Why don't more people understand the value of education and job training?

Why don't more people accept that we have already won the war in Iraq?

Are we there just to protect the Iraqi gov. that controls their oil? Who buys their oil?

I worry. Christina worries a lot (she says she has OCD, but I think she just has OD; she is strong and brave and kind and wonderful).

If we think about suicide or other ways to die, we don't need to worry.

Worry is about consequences.

I worry that my money will run out. If that happens, I won't be able to pay my bills. That means
inability to provide Clyde and Luna what they need (food, water, veterinary care, etc.)
foreclosure,
no phone service,
no Dish Network,
no water service,
no Internet service,
no gas service,
no money to pay for gasoline for Buffy,
no money for food,
etc.
If my money runs out, and techniques for delaying bankruptcy, I guess I could have other plans besides suicide....
B. Move to a cheaper place
C. Get a job
D. Get more freelance work
E. Ask people for ideas

Sometimes I don't have much motivation to keep me from sinking into the swamp.

Bruce has the flu.

I like being a helper--------------------with less responsibility----------------but it may be frustrating.

I fear that I will
1. get bad instructions
2. follow the instructions
3. make something bad happen out of ignorance
4. get blamed.

I'm 51. I should be immune to criticism. Maybe I should be happy to be so childlike.

I loaned $600 to a guy. He might install a DVD drive today. How odd.

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About Bill

Divorced, but in a committed relationship with Christina... and we're trying to figure out how she can move in with me. Living in a house named Doghouse with two dogs, Clyde and Luna, who are both Australian-shepherd mixes I got through Austin Aussie Rescue. Working freelance, but looking for a full-time job. I've worked for many mags: STEREO REVIEW, LEISURE TIME ELECTRONICS, CAR AUDIO AND ELECTRONICS, A/V INTERIORS, CAR STEREO REVIEW, MOBILE ELECTRONICS, and more.